So, I'm having a heck of a time getting into my latest MC, Kaia's, head. And here's the reason why. I think. Kaia is less bold than my normal female characters. Now, I'm not saying she's meek or weak…not by any stretch of the imagination. The girl's willing to risk life and limb in a world that would sooner see her die then succeed…all for her obnoxious little brother. I think I would classify Kaia as more of a "let's try and not rock the boat" kind of girl. Even when breaking the law, she does it in the least obtrusive way, and getting her to do even that was hard.
Her head is unfamiliar and foreign to me and I forgot to bring my passport. The furniture is all messed up and not arranged the way I like it. I prefer a big, overstuffed chair-and-a-half nestled next to a window so I can watch the world go by. Kaia's prefers the practicality of a creaky, stiff wooden chair close to the fire so that she can work well into the night on all the clothes she has to mend.
It's hard for me to crawl into her skin because we're so different. She's more timid than I am so it's taking extra hard work to get into her way of thinking and figuring out why she acts the way she acts and does what she does. I'm having difficulty drilling down to find out what really motivates her.
So, today, before dance, I'm locking myself up inside of B&N (in the Sbux section, of course) to try and get inside her head and get used to that stupid, uncomfortable chair.